Let me go back to a very difficult time in my life, that I know the Lord had to have been there or I would have never made it. Well, 25 years ago my sister (also best friend) lost her life right in front of me, and when I got to the car, I watched her pass away before my eyes. These are those things that never leave your mind, they are ingrained forever (even if it hadn’t been my own sister). I believe Jesus was with me that day also (and that was a long time before giving my life over to ministry). He walked a long way with me before I could move on and take off my sackcloth and get out of the ashes. I know one thing I was never the same. You know it is funny how we can find our spiritual lives when we experience something like death of another.
A lot has happened in my life to bring me where I am today. Lots of times I found myself feeling alone with all kinds of people around me, including my children. But since I have found Jesus, I am beginning to find out how unalone I am. He is always right beside me, always knocking. I have come to know that he has always been at the door waiting to come in; he never stops. He wanted me to know that I never have to feel alone, that He goes everywhere I go.
Luke 11:8“I tell you, even though he will not get up and give him anything because he is his friend, yet because of his persistence he will get up and give him as much as he needs. 9“So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 10“For everyone who asks, receives; and he who seeks, finds; and to him who knocks, it will be opened.
Revelation 3:20 Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.
I didn’t realize this till I gave into the ministry. I see it like this; when I laid down my life, I finally found it. He was there all the time, through a difficult childhood, through a trying adulthood, even now as I go through trials.
John 13:38 Then Jesus answered, “Will you really lay down your life for me?
John 10:18 No one takes my life from me. I give my life of my own free will. I have the authority to give my life, and I have the authority to take my life back again. This is what my Father ordered me to do.”
So seek Him and you will find Him, and when you give him your life, you will find life. A life where you are never lonely, truly free, and covered by his grace, and full of joy. I just want you to know, that it has taken me a long time to get where I am today, but my tests have become my testimonies. So if life has become to difficult to bare, hang in there, he is right beside you. You are not alone, you will find life again. A wise woman of God once told me, thank him in the good times and the bad and it will see you through (Thank you, Sister Cathy). That is so true, praising him gets me through everything that comes my way (and makes it easier). So lay it down, so you can find that joy and peace He talks about. Because I will tell you now, I never want to go back to my old life (one without him).
Here is to finding your life,
https://youtu.be/y1RQciil7B0 Touch The Sky (lyric video) – Hillsong UNITED